ono
I'm starting to think you need a break from all of this unu
I'm banning all boys from hurting your feelings. Feel free to print out an official restraining order on my behalf.

Sentence for ignoring restraining order is a ten page single-space essay on who made packaged bread, with 30 sources, 20 of which are books, cited in MLA format.
That should keep them at bay.

Have some internet chicken noodle soup
Take it easy and get better~

May I join please? I can write an about me a bit later

my friend is depressed and I don't know what to do
he doesn't see how good of a person he is
he doesn't see i'm not so great as he thinks i am
he can't see himself the way he is, nor understand why people respect him so much
he's hurting and i can't help him
it's killing me
how do i help someone that refuses to be helped
how do i tell him it's okay to hurt and he's not selfish for living
what am i going to do
what will i do if i wake up and he's gone
why does he hurt himself like this
what am i doing wrong
did i do this to him
i don't know anything
the not-knowing scares me
knowing nothing i do helps him nor has helped him in the past scares me
he's been to the hospital
it scared him
it was because of me
because i told someone what he wanted to do to himself
i scared him
how could i do that to him
nothing they do helps
he can't save himself
i just wish someone would save him already

Um, hi
I am not officially a member yet but I have gotten my self a bit worked up over this so I thought while I wait to be accepted I'll ask the therapists to get some advice.
So, at my school I am in the volleyball team and have been since I started high school. There are currently 11 on the team (including me) and all of them except one have said many many things about me behind my back. But at our last competition for the year something happened. There was the usual exclusion and talking behind my back (except the one person). Then one of the days we went to the shops for lunch and then had some free time to roam. I stuck with 3 of the girls, one is the girl who hasn't done anything and the other two have only talked behind my back once or twice. One of them had rung a friend cause we had nothing to do and the three were talking with the boy and I was just listening. Then the one girl who hasn't done anything said, 'oh! should I tell her?' then she said to me (I'll just put lines for their names) '________ and __________ have been sending photos of you to ___________ (the boy they were talking to, who I have no idea who he is!)' So yeah there was that. But on the bus ride home the same two girls who sent the photos were sitting together in a two seat diagonal from my one seat. The girl sitting in the aisle had a phone on her knee pointed towards me. At first I thought nothing of it but then, next thing I knew they were both looking at the screen and laughing. The girl on the aisle dropped the phone and I saw, on the screen, was me. They then showed it to two other girls on my team sitting behind them and they laughed too, and one asked for them to send it to her.
What should I do? My parents got me to email one of the girls (who I previously thought was a bit more of a friend than most of the other girls) asking her to delete them and stuff, bcc was my volleyball coach. My parents then said I need to talk to my coach about what happened. What do I do? I don't have the courage to talk to my teacher! I feel so horrible because I trust this teacher the most and he is my favourite teacher. Every time I have had a chance to talk to him in the first couple days of school, my anxiety takes over and I almost end up crying. I really want to talk to him but I can't. Does anyone have any advice? I feel like I have no control over my anxiety, let alone my life at the moment.

Edit: Oh and I am seeing the team for the first time tomorrow since the comp and I have anxiety about that as well. O.O

Oh and I didn't ping because it said one of the users didn't exist so I hope someone sees this and can help me. I worked out who it was.