Hullo dream ping group! I had a weird dream this morning--er, maybe it counts as three, but I don't remember waking up--and... all this happened in under two hours. Like, I have all night, but no, 6 AM to 7:30, that's the time for dreaming? Okay
Anyways

So first, I died
Dunno how, I was just dead from the beginning.
But the person I was dating was there, as well as someone else I don't know
I had to do a bunch of tasks to make up for all the wrongs I did in life sorta? and change past events to make things right? I've forgotten what those were, but it's not important because... then I had a child?? For some reason?
But THEN
I was in one of my video games, chilling with the main character... And i was supposed to protect him... and than I walked past some tiny market place, and then we were chased by these severely over-powered enemies, and then when we were safe again, I said to him, "There was a camera back there" and 'real me' (like my subconscious... having an inner dialogue during the dream? or something?) was like 'wait really?' and we went back and sure enough, there was a camera, and then these people plotting to kill the main character of the game set up two other cameras on the same table as the other camera... by setting actual security cams on top of their phones. Sure.
So I was looking at the map I had of the game for some reason, and when I look up I'm standing next to my sister's boyfriend in my church's gym--er, sorry, "cultural center" (it's a gym)--and we were trying to get somewhere or other, and he just stopped and watch these people playing basketball... then my grandma came and yelled at us, and we went to a party for my sister. Some people came and said words at us, and then we went for food, and I stood up, took a few steps, and promptly died. But... I mean, I looked back and saw, "Oh lookit that. I'm kinda dead." But then... while I was dead on the floor (i really need you to understand this)... I just kept walking... and got food?
If anyone here majors in psychology, I'd love to know whats wrong with my brain and if it's trying to tell me something.

Decimals are much nicer to work with :D

We have tons of little flies, mosquitoes, and ladybugs but as long as you wear bug repellent or are by a fire they leave you alone ^-^

I've never thought about that before and now it's going to bother me >.<
I can't stand milk. It hurts my stomach and tastes awful; I make an exception only for Dairy Queen blizzards and frozen yogurt. My mom bought almond milk because my sister was supposed to go vegan but quit after a day and I actually quit after a day and I quite like it with some cinnamon and sugar.
Today started off kinda rainy but ended up being humid and gross D:
I've never seen a black coyote before o,o and if they saw my dog they'd probably kill him because he'd run up to growl and bark at them.

I've never had a babysitter, what's it like? That sounds really fun though ^-^
Every year when we open our pool we do what my sister calls "The Great Frog Rescue" where we save all the tadpoles and release them into the river. Once there was a huge bullfrog that my parents made me jump in and catch because we couldn't with the cleaning net.

I made "nice cream" today which is really just frozen bananas and some almond milk and you just blend it in a blender. I added peanut butter and it's so good and I've almost eaten the whole bowl >.< I also almost reached 10000 steps today so I'm just going to walk after dinner to reach it if I haven't by then which is good because I like walking after eating. It feels like it helps settle the food.

You changed your avi again! It's so cute :DD

I like... a lot of drinks... I dunno. I like root beer, and some other sodas, I like various milks (I had some one time that made it felt like my mouth was bleeding :/ that wasn't great), I like hot chocolate, I like chocolate syrup... all the normal things
Thinkin' maybe you're lactose intolerant? ',:/ I have friends who are, and that's how they say it is for them
Today kinda rained, then just stayed cloudy
I dunno, my two little dogs once chased off a big, reddish coyote... depends on a lot. Desperation and health condition of the coyote, how many coyotes, time of day, growl to bark ratio, condition of dog... etc (keep in mind my dogs were old, one of them going white in the face and the other stiff)

I've had a few... if it's a good one, it's like having a friend, but one that's a lot older and taller than you. Rita was really old and couldn't see well, but she was still fun to play with. Had a couple others, they liked walking outside with us and we'd show them the dirt bank and all the plants on it. Bad ones are like jail wardens... and don't talk or play.
I love catching frogs in the pool :D We have tadpoles every spring, but don't clean them out since it's technically my aunts and not ours.... Every frog we catch pees on our sister for some reason, no matter who holds it first XD it's hilarious

I knew a family who adopted a girl with health conditions... she had lactose intolerance, but they made 'ice cream' for us. It was snow from outside, some coconut milk, and some sugar. It was pretty good :3 Ice cream can be made in many ways
I just had chocolate peanut butter ice cream... it was just from a tub, but still pretty good

Thanks ^w^ I just thought the hair looked cute and pulled together some stuff from my inventory... I couldn't change the color of the ribbon in the hair, so I just rolled with the pink. I probably shouldn't change my avi so often... but really, just because I have to have a certain appearance irl, why should I be grounded in the same way on interwebs :T I can be anyone, and right now I just really wanna be a winged girl with ribbons in her hair X3

Im to lazy to pick which lists I wanna be on, so you can add me to all of them :P

I don't like to drink carbonated drinks very often :T I am now learning I don't like very many things...
I do like hot chocolate, it's really good with caramel and cinnamon ^_^
Maybe.. Well, I try to avoid it anyways so trying not to eat it wouldn't be a change at all.

I was always sent to a daycare center for the few hours where the time when I ended school and the time when my mom ended work didn't match up. That sounds really fun though, I didn't really play much as a child though, like outside, I played with tiny toy horses and little figurines a lot though.
Every year a tree frog will jump onto my sister, without fail, and she will scream like it has a knife or something.
Once we got a snake in our pool and didn't notice so I went swimming and ended up swimming with it; the next day the filter was full of tiny baby snakes so we assumed the first was the mom.

I tried to make ice cream with snow this winter and it didn't turn out very well o.o I ended up just kinda eating a spoonful of frozen maple syrup instead.
Chocolate and peanut butter ice cream is the best. Every time we go up to the family lake house we buy some and it's gone by the second or third day :D

It'd be amazing if we could shape shift irl; imagine the body image issues it'd fix. It could also give people the sense of not really being themselves though so I guess it could also cause more problems. Oh well.
Designing avis are fun because if I want to be a fancy elf in a nice garden with birds around me then I can

Add me to the dream pinglist, please :P

hello to all my fellow people on the ranting ping list! today was my birthday and I haven't cried this many happy tears in a day before.
this might get long (like.. it will get really long) so I'm sorry for that >.<

my parents let my best friend sleep over last night and I didn't realize how much I missed her. (I'm already crying writing this i-) everything felt so normal and we woke up to the sound of birds and a tiny breeze. we laughed at 6 in the morning to stupid netflix shows and tiktoks. my mom made us french toast and I opened gifts and cards.
one card from from my pepere in north carolina and his girlfriend. I adore his girlfriend, she's so nice and makes me feel like I'm home where ever I am. we get to see them in a few weeks and I get to bring my best friend. I get to bring her on long walks on the beach, playing in the ocean and pool, long walks in the night air as the day cools off. I get to have a normal time
we went on a long walk to a small beach and in the forest before going out to get ice cream at dairy queen. a blizzard has never tasted sweeter. my friend and I hung out in my bed all day and had fun; eventually we had to drop her off and my mom stayed to talk with everyone. her and i sat and listened before going on the neighbor's trampoline. we had fun
i got home and my dad had burgers on the grill, he offered to take me on a bike ride after dinner and i accepted. the weather today couldn't have been nicer and I'd be stupid to pass up an opportunity to ride my dad's motorcycle. i ran upstairs to get changed and grabbed twizzlers. i got on my helmet and hopped on the bike and we left. the sun was setting as we left and the temperature was cooling off a bit and it felt like a movie. i felt loved and safe, i felt like it was a normal summer night. i was careless and it felt so good not to worry.
and this part might get a little triggering so I'm truly sorry
i didn't count calories today. i didn't get angry at myself for eating before lunch time. i didn't think twice before i grabbed those twizzlers before the bike ride. i had two and a half pieces of french toast and a whole burger with fries. i ate a small blizzard and some doritos without a care. i had a banana without cringing at the amount of calories it has. i didn't care
but now i do and i feel really dumb about it. my stomach is all bloated and i feel awful. i shouldn't care. i'm only 14; but i do. my mom asked if i wanted salad for dinner after i told her about all the stuff i ate today. i had another 4 twizzlers when i got home from the bike ride because i like the taste. it's taking all my control to not track the calorie amount or to reach back into the top drawer of my nightstand to comfort myself. i started a fast timer in hopes of it motivating me to fast until at least 10:30 tomorrow.

I'm sorry, i didn't know who else to rant to about this but today felt so good. tonight? not so much.. but I can just relive all the moments i felt alive today and that's enough for me.

i also hope everyone is safe and healthy! make sure to wash your hands and get enough sleep, food, and water!

Happy birthday xD -- first off

Second off I'm glad your birthday went well and I also hope tomorrow also goes well for you.